Okay, so maybe drawing art isn't my thing yet (It would be nice if it was, but then again, I have yet to work on it). I figure I'd post more of my other crap on here, while still trying to get myself to practice drawing.

On a side note, I guess I'm still struggling with my identity. That's probably why I'm into animals because they show some qualities of human behavior (I'd be a wolf).

Now I feel like posting more of my issues on here. Oh well...

I'm was/still am reading a book called "Wild at Heart." At one point, it says that a boy usually goes through an initiation of sorts to become a man. Only another man, preferably a father, can do this. Well, I lack a father. Already had two dads, my bio. dad died and my step dad divorced. *shrugs* Maybe I'm already a man by many standards but....it just hasn't been said by anyone important to me. I regret not spending time with my bio. dad though. There were many opportunities to, but I just sat in a room and played games all the time. I felt like beating myself to a near death state when I realized this...

Maybe it's because of this that my family and friends are all that matter to me. I really couldn't care for anything else. But I feel like a deuche for taking their strength and support to get me out of this emotional wreck when I can't do it myself. But...if they just offer it...and give it to me with no strings....who am I to reject their wishes?

I want something to do with my life. I don't want to just, wake up, work, play games, relax, spend time with my friends and family, and sleep. I want something...more...but what else is there? Or...maybe I have all that I need? Maybe I'm too "blind" to see it...